My Little Insecurties...

 Ugh, for SO LONG I've been insecure about my body... Sure, my friends say how they're fat and I'm skinny, but that's not the case. I'm not gonna go into detail because NOT JUST GIRLS read my blog. I guess all I want is to be skinny. I go to the gym every Tuesday, and then I have dance Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday. So I work out during almost the whole week! I still have this bump on my stomach and I  HATE IT! No, I'm not anorexic, and I don't plan on becoming belimic (idk if I spelled that right). Also, I'm not... average as you would say. I'm "developed up top" yet and I'm absolutely upset about it. I'm a teenager. I should be developed. All of my friends are and it kills me. No, looks aren't everything, but I get bullied for it. I'm crying as I write this because people say "I'm not good enough" or they make fun of me because it. My parents say I'm a late bloomer, but I feel discluded from most girl-talk conversations. This is such a hard topic for me to touch on, but I thought I would share it with you. No, I don't base everything on my looks, but I feel left behind. Why can't I be like the other girls? (skinny, busty, etc.) Why can't I be average? I have only 1 friend that has it just like me, yet she's skinny. Why can't I be normal....?

   P.S. Sorry if you got annoyed by this entry, I don't really care. So, read it if you want.

Love Always,
Just Another Girl </3

Update

 Here's a little update of what happened. Yesterday we SUPPOSED to be called into the office to "talk" about things, but the principal didn't call us down. #Victory! I think since I confronted her, she stopped her crap real quick.UGHHH, I just want to leave my school for a week... I want to fly away like a bird, away from this drama, and be free... I want to sleepover at a friends house over an entire weekend, and go to the city. I just want to leave my school for a WEEK! She is terrible. I DESPISE her. I hate her with a burning passion... The thing I'm mad about, is that.. I was nice to her! I was her friend when no one else was... Even though she was with/liked many guys, I still was her friend. But I KNEW she was a bad seed.
  The other girl involved has been my friend since April 2012. I trusted her. I was her friend when she felt insecure. I encouraged her, and complimented her when she felt TERRIBLE about herself. Then, on 12-26-12, the girl I hate and my "friend" had a sleepover. They texted my bf all this crap about me, trying to break us up... I found out, and now of course I hate her. I TRUSTED HER!!! And she went behind my back with this girl I absolutely can't stand! Now she still wants to be friends, but I'm like, no. I can't become friends with someone like that. Do you think I should? I don't know... I guess I just need to get by three more days of this...
Love,
Just Another Girl </3

Drama...

  For all of my viewers out there, middle school is not as cracked up as people say... Jealous girls are gonna start shit about you and you have to push through it. Today, I confronted the girl doing stuff to me and now the school is involved. GREAT, right? I confronted her calmly and nicely, but she got all defensive and denied EVERYTHING. Well, I told my mom and then she got an email. Her mom totally bitched my mom out, and I wanted to go punch the girl and HER in the face when I read it! This is NOT MY FAULT! I wanted to cry, but my mom said to stand my ground... Sometimes I don't want to go to school. I know I have the least kind of bullying going on, but it still hurts. I'm NOT suicidal and I'm NOT crazy, but sometimes I just want to leave Earth... I'm crying as I write this because NO ONE can help me ): The principal can't do anything, and he's gonna take HER side!! When I had trouble with another girl, he didn't choose sides. But tomorrow I might get called into the office... My friend said that to relieve the stress, listen to music. THAT doesn't help me. Her house is just a few streets down, and I wanna go yell at her & tell her to leave me the eff alone! ~sighs~ I need someone to help me. Sure, I have my bestest friends. You know that movie "Freaky Friday"? Well, I wish my mom could be in my shoes in a day, and get everything done with. She's more "out there" when it comes to this kind of thing. I'm too nice... Why? All I have to ask, is Why?...
Love,
Just Another Girl </3