My Little Insecurties...

 Ugh, for SO LONG I've been insecure about my body... Sure, my friends say how they're fat and I'm skinny, but that's not the case. I'm not gonna go into detail because NOT JUST GIRLS read my blog. I guess all I want is to be skinny. I go to the gym every Tuesday, and then I have dance Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday. So I work out during almost the whole week! I still have this bump on my stomach and I  HATE IT! No, I'm not anorexic, and I don't plan on becoming belimic (idk if I spelled that right). Also, I'm not... average as you would say. I'm "developed up top" yet and I'm absolutely upset about it. I'm a teenager. I should be developed. All of my friends are and it kills me. No, looks aren't everything, but I get bullied for it. I'm crying as I write this because people say "I'm not good enough" or they make fun of me because it. My parents say I'm a late bloomer, but I feel discluded from most girl-talk conversations. This is such a hard topic for me to touch on, but I thought I would share it with you. No, I don't base everything on my looks, but I feel left behind. Why can't I be like the other girls? (skinny, busty, etc.) Why can't I be average? I have only 1 friend that has it just like me, yet she's skinny. Why can't I be normal....?

   P.S. Sorry if you got annoyed by this entry, I don't really care. So, read it if you want.

Love Always,
Just Another Girl </3

Update

 Here's a little update of what happened. Yesterday we SUPPOSED to be called into the office to "talk" about things, but the principal didn't call us down. #Victory! I think since I confronted her, she stopped her crap real quick.UGHHH, I just want to leave my school for a week... I want to fly away like a bird, away from this drama, and be free... I want to sleepover at a friends house over an entire weekend, and go to the city. I just want to leave my school for a WEEK! She is terrible. I DESPISE her. I hate her with a burning passion... The thing I'm mad about, is that.. I was nice to her! I was her friend when no one else was... Even though she was with/liked many guys, I still was her friend. But I KNEW she was a bad seed.
  The other girl involved has been my friend since April 2012. I trusted her. I was her friend when she felt insecure. I encouraged her, and complimented her when she felt TERRIBLE about herself. Then, on 12-26-12, the girl I hate and my "friend" had a sleepover. They texted my bf all this crap about me, trying to break us up... I found out, and now of course I hate her. I TRUSTED HER!!! And she went behind my back with this girl I absolutely can't stand! Now she still wants to be friends, but I'm like, no. I can't become friends with someone like that. Do you think I should? I don't know... I guess I just need to get by three more days of this...
Love,
Just Another Girl </3

Drama...

  For all of my viewers out there, middle school is not as cracked up as people say... Jealous girls are gonna start shit about you and you have to push through it. Today, I confronted the girl doing stuff to me and now the school is involved. GREAT, right? I confronted her calmly and nicely, but she got all defensive and denied EVERYTHING. Well, I told my mom and then she got an email. Her mom totally bitched my mom out, and I wanted to go punch the girl and HER in the face when I read it! This is NOT MY FAULT! I wanted to cry, but my mom said to stand my ground... Sometimes I don't want to go to school. I know I have the least kind of bullying going on, but it still hurts. I'm NOT suicidal and I'm NOT crazy, but sometimes I just want to leave Earth... I'm crying as I write this because NO ONE can help me ): The principal can't do anything, and he's gonna take HER side!! When I had trouble with another girl, he didn't choose sides. But tomorrow I might get called into the office... My friend said that to relieve the stress, listen to music. THAT doesn't help me. Her house is just a few streets down, and I wanna go yell at her & tell her to leave me the eff alone! ~sighs~ I need someone to help me. Sure, I have my bestest friends. You know that movie "Freaky Friday"? Well, I wish my mom could be in my shoes in a day, and get everything done with. She's more "out there" when it comes to this kind of thing. I'm too nice... Why? All I have to ask, is Why?...
Love,
Just Another Girl </3

My Dog

I just read an entry out of my diary... It said my dog, 8 years of age, started to have a tumor on his butt at 2-10-12. That was TEN MONTHS ago. He still is suffering from this cancerous disease, and I just finished crying my eyes out. I hadn't realized my dog, my first dog ever, was suffering for almost a year... Why does this have to happen to him?! I love this dog TO DEATH, and he is close to DIEING in a matter of a couple of years! I'm tearing up just writing this entry. I need someone. I can't lose him... ),;

Back stabbed In Life

Tonight, my true friend and my enemy joined together to try and breakup my relationship. I was so mad that I was shaking like crazy when my boyfriend told me. Then they have the NERVE to text me saying they got my back when I'm sad. BITCH, don't talk to me!!! Stop telling my boyfriend that I'm fake, that I'm too low for him, and this other crap! I'm done with you, Bitches! Leave me alone! Now he thinks I told people, so he's upset. Not my fault people make up lies. I'm completely DONE with them. He told me all of this drama on video chat, and the whole time I was squeezing one of my stuffed animals. We talked, then hung up, and I broke down. These two girls made me cry! Then my boyfriend doesn't want me to let them know that I know. What did he expect me to do? They texted me and tried calling me. Now apparently I made one of them cry because I didn't LET THEM KNOW. So fucking what? I really don't care. My "best friend" turned against me for my enemy. My eyes feel heavy because I've been crying for 2 hours. Now they are telling OTHERS, outside the circle of drama, and they are messaging my friend about why "I'm upset" and she doesn't know anything that was going on until 1 hour ago. I want to punch them both in the face, and my dad almost drive my friend over to the house they are sleeping over at, just to go yell at them. I need a therapist... I don't deserve any of the shit that's happening to me. I'm nice to everyone, so why do people hate me?
Just talked to them. At least one bitch is put of my life forever(:

Christmas(:

Today is Christmas! Or, yesterday it was because it is 2:02am... Well, for Xmas I got many awesome things! One of my def favs was my very own iPad3(: That was the last gift I had to open. So this is how the morning went.
My brother woke me up at 7am. Since it was Christmas, I didn't sleep much the night before so I was exhausted! We ran downstairs and teared open ALL of the gifts. I got a bunch of gift cards, a Coach purse, yoga pants from PINK, fleece scarves, a vest, a scrapbook, Diary Of A Wimpy Kid, headphones, UGGS, then the last gift was my iPad! It was a big box with three presents labeled #1,#2,#3. The first one felt like a book, so I was wondering why I had to open it last. My brother opened his present before me and received an XBOX, so I felt kinda left out if I just got a book, you know? So I opened the #1 present and I screamed at the top of my lungs when I saw the iPad case(: At first, I thought they got me ANOTHER iPod touch, but I screamed anyways. The second present was a case for the iPad. It clips on to it and can stand up! The third gift was a Coach iPad case for travel. Honestly, I was NOT expecting to get ANY Apple products this xmas(: I posted a bunch of pics on Instagram and Tweeted a lot on Twitter. I was in AWE! I just wanted to thank my parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles, & cousins for everything they got for me. I truly didn't need anything this year, but thanks for making it the best. Love you guys <3

An Update

  You know, I had surgery on 11-06-12 (yesterday) for two moles on my head. I had one on the right side of my nose and one of the left side of my scalp. I went in yesterday at about 10:30am, but didn't get called in until 11:45am. I walked in the white, cold room. I looked around and saw metal objects laying on a table. What were they gonna do to me? I was freaking out! I had to close my eyes, and he told me step-by-step on what he was going to do. He stuck a needle on my nose to numb it, then did the procedure and removed the mole. Then he went to my head and stuck a needle through it, and did the same thing. The needle on my head hurt worse than the one on my nose. I pulled through it though.
  Now there's stitches in both places. They hurt like a motherfucker. I have to take Tylenol every 4 hours to ease the pain. Today, everyone was asking what happened and why I wasn't at school yesterday. I gave a short summary, but it was annoying because 15+ people asked me. GRR! The cut on my head is open, and just has stitches (no gauze or medical tape). The cut on my nose has stitches and medical tape. It honestly doesn't look that bad, but the wound on my head gives me MAJOR headaches ): Who knows what's going to happen? The plastic surgeon wanted to remove the two moles because he didn't want them to become skin cancer. The moles got sent to a lab, and by 11-13-12 I will know if they're cancerous or not. I'm excited for next Tuesday because I get my stitches out!!! YAY (: Also, I get a doctors note to sit out of gym, so next week I get out for gym for 2 days. This week I have Health, so there's no need for the note yet. I hope this entry gave you an update about what happened yesterday!
Love Always,
~Just Another Girl