More & More Drama For Me.

  I went to a Barmitzvah last Saturday, right? And only 5 out of the 45 people talked to me the whole time we were there. It was ridiculous. All of my enemy's minions gave me dirty looks, but eff them! I gave them right back. One of my friends told me that when I left, my enemy asked, "Where's the girl with the ratchet* hair? BAHAHA!" My hair was in a braid and my hair had hair bows in it too. So, hopefully I can put a pic in to show you. (PIC DOWN BELOW) But, that bitch called my hair ratchet. UMMM, NO. I then posted a status on Facebook saying, "I've got ratchet hair? Honey, you shouldn't be talking." and people commented saying I didn't and I was like, SHOOSH YEA I DON'T. TWO days later, "her" minion comments saying she hopes it isn't about my enemy and her mother because they are both very nice people. Bullshit... So I comment saying I didn't write names, I don't know who said it, ya-da ya-da ya-da. My mom intervenes saying that she doesn't know what, who shall not be named, is capable of. Frickin tard. THIS GIRL NEEDS TO SHUT HER TRAP, I SWEAR. She needs Jesus!!!
   All in all, this bitch is trying to start MORE problems, saying it's "scouts honor" that my enemy didn't say anything when I have FOUR SOURCES. Three people tell me it's (girl named with an "S") and my enemy (girl named with a "B"). Okay? Now, I know who said it so don't act like it's not them. Stfu. I am just done with these people. Once they die, all Hell turns cold. GAHH, I just want them to leave me alone. I did NOTHING to her. Why does she stalk my Facebook at sleepovers with her "besties for now" and why does she constantly start rumors about me when I don't even talk to her? WHY WHY WHY? Is all I have to ask myself. I don't deserve this. While she tries to bring me down, that means I'm above her. She is the one stooping to her own damn level. Her and her WHOLE damn family need help. They are COO-KOO. Ugh, I need them to leave me alone. IF there is evil in your life, don't be afraid to walk away. Let them ruin everything for themselves. Their family has gone through more friends than you can count on TWO hands. What is wrong with them? The world may never know...
      *Ratchet- dirty, stinky, nasty, gross, disgusting
      ~Ex: "Shaniqua has a ratchet weave. YUCK!"~
   Love Always,
Just Another Girl <3

                            That is my hair that I wore to the Barmitzvah! Isn't it just ratchet (;

  So my bestfriend, (no name given), was supposed to come to the mall with me in like an hour with 3 other girls. She said "yes" and then cancelled about an hour ago... She said that she already made plans with out friend Adam. FO'real. You choose A GUY over your bestfriend? Alright... And now she doesn't want to pick sides so she's not going with either one of us. GREAT.
  But on the bright side, I'm going wit Vinitha, Georgeanne, and Katie :) My bff Mikaela is driving to Mall of America so I miss her -tear- ANYWAYS, I wanted it to be a "ladies day" but she wanted 2 of our guy friends to come. Like, no. I mean, I wish she could've come with but whatever. I'll still have fun with my other friends, right?
  This entry isn't that long, but I wanted to tell you how my day is/gonna be and what happened. OH, and I had the worst Friday night AND Saturday day. On Friday night, I went to someone's house with Mikaela, Vinitha, and Jordan. NO ONE talked to us. That's why we left early... They played "Spin The Bottle" and that's not how I roll. I gotta bf. THEN, yesterday I went to Cole's barmitzvah and no one talked to me except 5 people outta 40. And my bully, the evil devil, and her minions were there too so that's why only 5 people talked to me. I wanted to leave. I hate them. Ugh, it was terrible. I needed to punch a hoe.
  Today will hopefully be better. It's pretty good right now. #snapchatting It's this picture app where you send pics up to 10 seconds and then it disappears. Pretty cool. I'm ADDICTED. Someone get me an intervention :/ Okay, this has been long enough hahaha! 
    Love Always,
Just Another Girl <3

TODAY (:

  Today I was streching my splits for like one and half hours, teehee(: I figured out that if you read a book or watch tv while stretching, you don't think about the pain too much. So, I'M REALLY CLOSE! (huge applause) Yea no. On March 31st, it is me and my boyfriend's 7 month <3 OMG I'M SO EXCITED! I've only been single 10 days out of this school year... Dat shit cray. Excuse my French. Why do people say that? OBVIOUSLY you're speaking in English! Ugh, Norton wants go restart my laptop... Can't it tell that I'm writing my life story? HELLOOOOO TOSHIBA.
  This post is kind of all over the place. Well, I gotta make plans for Spring Break because it's next week #hellyeah And my boyfriend wants to hangout with me at least 2-3 times BUT I'M ONLY OFF 9 DAYS, gahhh! I just got a text from him:
Me: "Wanna hangout this Sunday then Thursday?"
Him: "That's a week from today, but alright I'm gonna miss you like HELL."
  Aww shucks(: So today I had a little quarrel with him. We talked on the phone for 20 mins because I've been getting this TINY, ITTY BITTY feeling that he's starting to like this other girl... I texted him saying it's okay if he liked someone, I just wanted him to tell me. He called and said they're just friends and he doesn't like anyone but me. I thought that was cute, but I still kind of have that feeling... I OVERTHINK TOO MUCH.
  I bought "Perks of Being a Wallflower" 4 days ago, and just finished it last night. Whoa. It changed my life, I swear. I almost cried at the end... Now I'm reading "Peter & The Sword of Mercy". It's 515 pages long(: I love books like that. I'm only on page 5 doe... I'm also stressed out with school. Let me tell you my grades.
Intro Algebra: C+
Science: A
Spanish: A
Honors L.A: A-
Honors Reading: A
P.E: A
S.S: U
 My math teacher didn't upgrade the grades yet, because I gave him corrections. And I retook a test in Social Studies, so she didn't count that. Whatever. So once they update them, I'll have all A's and B's. WOO HOO! This entry is so damn long... Alright well I'm gonna go to bed since it's 10:15pm on a school night.
   Love Always,
Just Another Girl <3

Sorry For Being Me...

I want to leave. I want to get out of here. Why does life have to be so hard? I try to be the best I can be, yet you put me down. I cry almost every night, and I know you do a lot for me but you're making me miserable some days. YES, I will try and make the high school poms team. YES, I WILL eventually get my splits. No, I'm not clinically depressed. No, I'm not suicidal. But some days I feel depressed and sad. And some days, I don't want to be on Earth anymore. Nobody knows. Nobody knows all of the harsh things I go through. Yes, people have it worse than me. Yes, I understand that. One of my friends used to cut and tried to commit suicide. She has had a worse childhood. You do everything for me, and I'm grateful. But you make me depressed because of your constant yelling and threatening to leave. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being me. I'm sorry for what I've done wrong. I'm sorry for not being good enough. I'm sorry for doing enough. I'm just sorry! Okay?
Some days I want to go home and sleep so I can't think of being depressed. I don't need medication, no. No, I'm not insane. I don't cut. I don't try to commit suicide. I don't post sad statuses on Facebook. I don't think of a way to kill myself. I don't do those things. Things just get so stressful, and sometimes I don't want to deal with it, so I lock myself in my room. You don't know how hard it is. Yes, I know people have it WAY worse than me. Don't tell me, I know. I'm not perfect. I'm not the right person. I don't always make the right decisions. I apologize for being me.

Love Always,
Just Another Girl