My Dog

I just read an entry out of my diary... It said my dog, 8 years of age, started to have a tumor on his butt at 2-10-12. That was TEN MONTHS ago. He still is suffering from this cancerous disease, and I just finished crying my eyes out. I hadn't realized my dog, my first dog ever, was suffering for almost a year... Why does this have to happen to him?! I love this dog TO DEATH, and he is close to DIEING in a matter of a couple of years! I'm tearing up just writing this entry. I need someone. I can't lose him... ),;

Back stabbed In Life

Tonight, my true friend and my enemy joined together to try and breakup my relationship. I was so mad that I was shaking like crazy when my boyfriend told me. Then they have the NERVE to text me saying they got my back when I'm sad. BITCH, don't talk to me!!! Stop telling my boyfriend that I'm fake, that I'm too low for him, and this other crap! I'm done with you, Bitches! Leave me alone! Now he thinks I told people, so he's upset. Not my fault people make up lies. I'm completely DONE with them. He told me all of this drama on video chat, and the whole time I was squeezing one of my stuffed animals. We talked, then hung up, and I broke down. These two girls made me cry! Then my boyfriend doesn't want me to let them know that I know. What did he expect me to do? They texted me and tried calling me. Now apparently I made one of them cry because I didn't LET THEM KNOW. So fucking what? I really don't care. My "best friend" turned against me for my enemy. My eyes feel heavy because I've been crying for 2 hours. Now they are telling OTHERS, outside the circle of drama, and they are messaging my friend about why "I'm upset" and she doesn't know anything that was going on until 1 hour ago. I want to punch them both in the face, and my dad almost drive my friend over to the house they are sleeping over at, just to go yell at them. I need a therapist... I don't deserve any of the shit that's happening to me. I'm nice to everyone, so why do people hate me?
Just talked to them. At least one bitch is put of my life forever(:

Christmas(:

Today is Christmas! Or, yesterday it was because it is 2:02am... Well, for Xmas I got many awesome things! One of my def favs was my very own iPad3(: That was the last gift I had to open. So this is how the morning went.
My brother woke me up at 7am. Since it was Christmas, I didn't sleep much the night before so I was exhausted! We ran downstairs and teared open ALL of the gifts. I got a bunch of gift cards, a Coach purse, yoga pants from PINK, fleece scarves, a vest, a scrapbook, Diary Of A Wimpy Kid, headphones, UGGS, then the last gift was my iPad! It was a big box with three presents labeled #1,#2,#3. The first one felt like a book, so I was wondering why I had to open it last. My brother opened his present before me and received an XBOX, so I felt kinda left out if I just got a book, you know? So I opened the #1 present and I screamed at the top of my lungs when I saw the iPad case(: At first, I thought they got me ANOTHER iPod touch, but I screamed anyways. The second present was a case for the iPad. It clips on to it and can stand up! The third gift was a Coach iPad case for travel. Honestly, I was NOT expecting to get ANY Apple products this xmas(: I posted a bunch of pics on Instagram and Tweeted a lot on Twitter. I was in AWE! I just wanted to thank my parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles, & cousins for everything they got for me. I truly didn't need anything this year, but thanks for making it the best. Love you guys <3

An Update

  You know, I had surgery on 11-06-12 (yesterday) for two moles on my head. I had one on the right side of my nose and one of the left side of my scalp. I went in yesterday at about 10:30am, but didn't get called in until 11:45am. I walked in the white, cold room. I looked around and saw metal objects laying on a table. What were they gonna do to me? I was freaking out! I had to close my eyes, and he told me step-by-step on what he was going to do. He stuck a needle on my nose to numb it, then did the procedure and removed the mole. Then he went to my head and stuck a needle through it, and did the same thing. The needle on my head hurt worse than the one on my nose. I pulled through it though.
  Now there's stitches in both places. They hurt like a motherfucker. I have to take Tylenol every 4 hours to ease the pain. Today, everyone was asking what happened and why I wasn't at school yesterday. I gave a short summary, but it was annoying because 15+ people asked me. GRR! The cut on my head is open, and just has stitches (no gauze or medical tape). The cut on my nose has stitches and medical tape. It honestly doesn't look that bad, but the wound on my head gives me MAJOR headaches ): Who knows what's going to happen? The plastic surgeon wanted to remove the two moles because he didn't want them to become skin cancer. The moles got sent to a lab, and by 11-13-12 I will know if they're cancerous or not. I'm excited for next Tuesday because I get my stitches out!!! YAY (: Also, I get a doctors note to sit out of gym, so next week I get out for gym for 2 days. This week I have Health, so there's no need for the note yet. I hope this entry gave you an update about what happened yesterday!
Love Always,
~Just Another Girl

Field Trip!

  So today I went on a field trip! It was amazing(: The 75 minute bus ride there and back was hilarious. When we got to the place (Cantigny) and we got to walk around a museum and Colonel McCormick's house! Yea, to you guys it sounds pointless, boring, the list could go on and on. But it was actually REALLY fun. Outside, there were like, 10 army tanks. They were climable. So, I proceeded to climb them. At the top, my mom took a picture of me and my boyfriend. Hahaha! I loved the whole day, because I spent time with friends, climbed a few tanks, walked through a huge, beautiful estate, and I still got back to school with 15 minutes to spare. #AWESOMEDAY
 I wanted to give an update to my fellow readers:
   My next blog entry will be of a story I have been writing for a few days. It's about a girl being affected by Hurricane Sandy. Hurricane Sandy is a super storm (3 hurricanes combined right now) that is going to/is destroying the east coast. My story is to show that once someone is affected, what they're feelings would be. The story will NOT, I repeat NOT, be done. I am only 6 pages in, so... ENJOY READERS!
  I hoped you guys LOVED my colorful info above(: Stay Gorgeous(:
Love Always,
Just Another Girl

Texting

  So I'm just texting people and minding my own business, when my ex texts me... I dated him towards the end of last year, and I hadn't talked to him since. When we broke up, he said we wanted to try and get it right this year. But I already have a new boyfriend... I like this boyfriend more then my ex, but I don't know what to say. This was months ago, and his number just pops up. Now he's asking if I'm dating ____. I am, and I told him yes. My ex is going to the same highschool I am, but my current boyfriend is going to a separate highschool. What a coincidence! Ugh! Why can't ONE thing go my way?!
  Our convo:
Ex: Hey, are you still dating anyone?
Me: Yea... are you?
Ex: No :(
Me: Who do you like?
Ex: Nobody on red team and nobody on white team, but someone on blue team. Eighth grade. Aren't you dating Ben?
Me: Yes, why? Who's the girl.
Ex: You...
Me: Cool.
  WHY DOES HE STILL HAVE FEELINGS FOR ME?!
  I just don't understand. He needs to move on, find another girl. We broke up in the middle of June 2012... It's October 2012, that was 4 months ago. I've found someone new, he should too. We can still be friends, but it'll be awkward if he keeps hanging on to what we HAD. I hope this all blows over by tomorrow or at least by next week. I don't want anymore drama.
  Moral of the story: Texting = Drama
Love Always,
~Just Another Girl~

Night Time...

  Today was okay and sucky at the same time. Hahaha! I just say "sucky" :P I'm so immature. Anyways, part of the day sucked ass and then some of it was awesome. The beginning of the day did NOT go well for me. I didn't make the poms/dance team for my school. I checked the list several times, only to realize that I hadn't made it. I went to the list in the morning, with my boyfriend and one of my besties. I ran my finger down the list, and my # (#27) wasn't printed on it. I wanted to scream, punch someone, cry. I wanted to wallow in a ball and cry my eyes out. Of course I DID NOT do this, because I was at school. So, whatever. The poms team will suck without me and my 2 friends.
  After checking the list MANY times, I told my boyfriend that I hadn't made the team. I mean, I was bummed... BIG time. He said he was so sorry and pulled me into a hug. That moment I wanted to break down and have him hold me. That sounds like I'm a cry baby, but too frickin bad.
  During passing period, I would wander towards the list and check over and over again if I made it, and missed it. I saw and confirmed that I had NOT made the team. I fast-walked to my locker and texted my Mom, telling her I had not made it. I seriously wish I was on that team...
  Tonight my head hurts like hell. Probably from all the stress that has taken a toll on me today. I had ballet technique so I stretched a LOT. So now my butt muscle and knee bruise are killing me. Great. Well tomorrow is Gay Pride day (rainbow wear), so I will proceed to living my normal life. I am trying to forget about my loss.
  I hope tonight I dream of nice things, and I really hope this poms thing doesn't effect me tomrrow... Thanks for reading(:
~Love Always,
Just Another Girl