High School & Update

  High school... It's here... Has been for 3.5 months. It's amazing, I'll tell you that. At the end of last school year, I thought I was going to miss all of my friends that were gonna go to different high schools, but I only miss like, 4. That's sad to say, but it's true. I love my school, and now I'm talking to a wonderful Sophomore who's SO cute, but unfortunately, has a girlfriend :/ It's alright though, because they're adorable <3 I found out a new thing about my best guy friend, & honestly, he thought I would hate him, but in reality, I find the secret amazing & brave(: I won't say it on here because he trusted me, but I thought I would address it.
   My boyfriend of a year & 1 month & I broke up on 9/15/13... At first, I wasn't that upset since we stopped hanging out because of dance team. But after like 3 weeks, I cried every night. I still miss him SO much, but now he hangs with my ex-bff that I wrote about 2 entries ago... He also might start dating this girl soon... I miss him so much. Like, he was my everything. He was my cuddle buddy when I needed someone. He was the one I went to if I needed a laugh, if I needed someone to talk to. He made life better. I remember when I went to his house for a movie, & he was standing up, turning the movie on. I had this urge that I wanted to hug him & kiss him & tell him how much he meant to me. So, I went & hugged HIM from behind & I told him I loved him because at the time, I thought I did. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think about him & our memories... I wish he read this, because he thought I didn't care. He thought I didn't want to be with him, when really, I was busy with dance team. I guess he was the one thing I had to take out of my busy life. I wish he wasn't.
  Dance team went well this season. I performed at 3 football games, & the friends I made because of the team, are amazing(: I love them so much.
  I guess you could say that I am having a good-ish year. LOL. Alright, nice writing to ya'll(:

You're Creative.

  I hear, from down Santa Clause lane, that my ultimate ENEMY made a new nickname for me. I've never said my name on here, but here we go. KUNTzer. Screw you, bitch. She is a total lame ass who doesn't have a life OF HER OWN. Her life revolves around me. Most of the time, her name/her existance doesn't even cross my blonde mind, okay? She needs to get it through her thick skull, that idgaf anymore. I haven't for 2 years. But, I told my friend (who found out) that this chick is very creative. Very. Creative. In fact, she's so creative, I could shove glitter up her tight asshole, and she wouldn't even know. Like Ke$ha. But uglier. Everytime I talk about her, I seem like a really rude/mean/stupid person. All I'm doing, is venting my feelings because typing is a hell of a lot faster than writing in my diary. YES, I have a diary. Get over yourselves.
  SOOOOO, she can go screw her own butthole. Ighhttt, so that's the end. I guess? So, yea that's what I heard today. I hope whoever reads this, laughed a bit. I will later on in the week, prob... PENETRATION. K bye.

I Miss You...

  I'm crying. I miss you like hell. Why can't we be friends? In my last post, I said goodbye. But I REALLY don't want to... I made a Vine about it, if you wanna see it (you know who you are). I thought she threw away the notes. I thought she stopped caring. I can't stop crying. Idk what else to say. Everytime I think of my bestfriend being not THERE, I choke up and cry until I can't breathe. Who knew someone could do that to you? Especially someone you only new for 2 years... They take over your heart completely (boy and girl) and you can't wait to hangout with them ALL. DE. TIME. But now... you can't. Ugh. If you're reading this, I miss you so much, girl. Our friendship meant so much to me, and it's pretty much shattered at this point. I wanna pick up the pieces. So bad. I'm crying as I type this, legit. My boyfriend is trying to make me "blush", but he doesn't know I'm crying so it seems REALLY stupid, haha! Hopefully that made you laugh.
 All I'm trying to say, is, I miss you so much. I want to be able to call you up and ask if you want to walk around ANYWHERE to talk about absolutely ANYTHING. The last time we hungout, was when we saw that alien movie with the 2 hot guys. We just talked about the movie because everything was awkward between us. Then, we stopped talking all together. I can't take it. I miss you. I've said it AT LEAST a thousand times, and I'll say a thousand more. I miss you, girl.

Goodbye Friend.

  Do you know what it's like, to know you've lost your bestfriend. Asking who their bestfriend is on an anonymous site, and them saying its not you. It's hard... The person you did so much with, is gone. Going to a different high school in two months, so now it doesn't matter. Why should I try? All the memories are forgotten. The notes I wrote to her, are probably stored in her closet or thrown away... I wouldn't blame her, because we don't talk. The last time we did, I wanted to hangout with her. She didn't answer... She wanted to kill herself in April, we stopped talking in around March, so I didn't know. She dumped her bf because she thought it would be easier FOR HIM, if she died while they were just friends. I kinda thought about not wanting to exist. BUT, I didn't want to kill myself. I asked to be friends again, because almost everyone left me. She told me. Why hadn't I noticed? That's right, because she pushed me away, for some reason. Idk what to do. I guess, just leave my old BFF with my enemy... Yep, she went to the dark side. Whatever. I can't do anything anymore. Goodbye Friend.

What Is Love?

  Last night I sort of had a "fight" with my boyfriend... So here's how it went down!
Him: "I'm going to sleep, I just want this day to be over. Goodnight, wuvv you"
Me: "Okay... Goodnight"
Him: "Okay, seriously what's wrong?"
Me: "What?!"
  Then he went on saying that I don't try in the relationship and whenever he tried to be cute, I don't acknowledge it/care. Wtf?! Then he asked if I liked someone else, and that's why I was acting different. UMM, NO! Ugh, I cried a little because I thought he was gonna break up with me... I know that sounds kinda stupid, I thought so AFTER the fact. I told my friend, imthesis, and she tried to help me (thanks btw :]) He then asked if I was even happy with him. Where the hell is this coming from? All that happened for like 1 hour, and then he's like, "I'm just be a fricking retard. Can we forget this and be happy together?" I didn't want to just FORGET that he just thought I didn't want to be with him. I wanted to work it out, and he said alright but we should move on. I then just said I had to go to bed since it was 11:20pm on a SCHOOL NIGHT.
  The whole night was a bust. He says he loves me, but idk what love is supposed to feel like, but I just say it back... Don't tell him, shhh! Can anyone comment saying that they KNOW what it feels like? Because I have no idea. Is it bad to tell him I do then? I'm just scared that we're gonna breakup... THENNN, in Reading, he was acting all mad when Kelsie was talking shit about Stephen's girlfriend. Like, why the hell do you like Yvette now? He looked PIIIISSSEEDDD. And then he said, "You're just gonna let them talk about your gf like that?" Like, I WAS DEFENDING HIS GF. Kelsie was the one talking shit. Don't act like I hate her.
  He's also acting realllyyy clingy. BACK. THE. HELL. UP. PLEASE. Yea yea, he really likes me. I KNOW. Just gimme some space, brah.
   Love Always,
Just Another Girl </3

April Fools Day(:

  Hey guys(: HAPPY APRIL FOOLS! I haven't posted since Wednesday, I think. I had a very nice Spring Break. A bunch of girls started drama, I'm over it. Haha! Then, I found my enemy's Instagram (: Tomorrow is school... I'm not excited to wake up at 5:35 in the morning, but I don't really care about the assignments. I only have until May 30th until I graduate. NOT HIGH SCHOOL. I'm graduating middle school, lol. Tricked you, didn't I?
  Today is mine and Ben's (now you know my boyfriend's name) 7 month(: YES, I just wrote his name in here. BIG WHOOP. Now some of you probably know who I am... hahaha :P We have been together for 7 months, wow... People say middle school relationships dont count, but I think mine does. We walked around my neighborhood for 2 hours, holding hands and laughing. Talking about pointless shit. It was amazing (: He makes me so happy! This girl posted on Facebook today, that it's worthless to have a relationship in middle school. Because of fighting. Not EVERYONE'S relationship is full of fighting. And then she's saying that her family is only there for you. Yea, they are. But some guy can make you really happy...
  I saw "The Host" with my friend, Just Your Average Girl. We walked in, being all quiet, and then saw that NO ONE was in the theater. So, we talked as loud as we wanted and laughed or said "aww" to certain parts. Then at the end, "Radioactive" by Imagine Dragons played, and we had a Twerk Team and dance party. WHOOP WHOOP ;)
  My YouTube channel is finally kicking up! I get 3-4 subscribers a day now (: Right now I have 128. This morning I had a 122! And now I message some of my fans! But, I won't write my YouTube channel name in here because then you will know who I am. But some guy is being a douche so yea...
  This week as been awesome and I can't wait to see all of my school friends (; Talk to you guys later!
   Love Always,
Just Another Girl <3
 

More & More Drama For Me.

  I went to a Barmitzvah last Saturday, right? And only 5 out of the 45 people talked to me the whole time we were there. It was ridiculous. All of my enemy's minions gave me dirty looks, but eff them! I gave them right back. One of my friends told me that when I left, my enemy asked, "Where's the girl with the ratchet* hair? BAHAHA!" My hair was in a braid and my hair had hair bows in it too. So, hopefully I can put a pic in to show you. (PIC DOWN BELOW) But, that bitch called my hair ratchet. UMMM, NO. I then posted a status on Facebook saying, "I've got ratchet hair? Honey, you shouldn't be talking." and people commented saying I didn't and I was like, SHOOSH YEA I DON'T. TWO days later, "her" minion comments saying she hopes it isn't about my enemy and her mother because they are both very nice people. Bullshit... So I comment saying I didn't write names, I don't know who said it, ya-da ya-da ya-da. My mom intervenes saying that she doesn't know what, who shall not be named, is capable of. Frickin tard. THIS GIRL NEEDS TO SHUT HER TRAP, I SWEAR. She needs Jesus!!!
   All in all, this bitch is trying to start MORE problems, saying it's "scouts honor" that my enemy didn't say anything when I have FOUR SOURCES. Three people tell me it's (girl named with an "S") and my enemy (girl named with a "B"). Okay? Now, I know who said it so don't act like it's not them. Stfu. I am just done with these people. Once they die, all Hell turns cold. GAHH, I just want them to leave me alone. I did NOTHING to her. Why does she stalk my Facebook at sleepovers with her "besties for now" and why does she constantly start rumors about me when I don't even talk to her? WHY WHY WHY? Is all I have to ask myself. I don't deserve this. While she tries to bring me down, that means I'm above her. She is the one stooping to her own damn level. Her and her WHOLE damn family need help. They are COO-KOO. Ugh, I need them to leave me alone. IF there is evil in your life, don't be afraid to walk away. Let them ruin everything for themselves. Their family has gone through more friends than you can count on TWO hands. What is wrong with them? The world may never know...
      *Ratchet- dirty, stinky, nasty, gross, disgusting
      ~Ex: "Shaniqua has a ratchet weave. YUCK!"~
   Love Always,
Just Another Girl <3

                            That is my hair that I wore to the Barmitzvah! Isn't it just ratchet (;